I want to tell sombody about this but never can or will. I’m 19 now and have only had sex with my present boyfriend. I go to college now and all the students and teachers think I look much younger than I really am. When I look at myself in the mirror I also see myself as a young teenager. I am fairly well developed but am a little less than five foot tall and could pass for a 13 or 14 year old. I have a part time job in an office complex answering late night calls for an answering service. I only work weekend nights until 11 o’clock and there are few people around. Ten months ago I fell down a half flight of stairs. No one was around and I was in so much pain I could hardly move. All the sudden an older man who I know now is a security guard picked me up like a feather and took me into a doctors office. My whole body hurt and he put me down on an exam table. He first asked me where I was hurt then kept touching my body and I didn’t realize at first that my skirt was up to my waiste. When I asked him if he was a doctor he said he was. My lower back hurt the most and he helped me turn over onto my stomach. Before I knew what was happening he pulled my panties down and began rubbing my tail bone. Believing he was a doctor I just laid there letting him do it. He began asking me what happened and where else I was hurting and without realizing it at the time, he was feeling me up and at one point touching my breasts. I was in so much pain I didn’t care and even when he turned me on my back again I never questioned him further, even knowing my panties were still down around my knees exposing my vagina to him. He never touched me there but did rub my thighs for awhile. I still never doubted he was a doctor. He is a big man I think about 60 or more with gray hair and glasses. He asked me a lot of questions the entire time and I don’t know what or how much I told him about me. When I got home that night my whole body still hurt and I had bruises all over, I suppose because the steps are cement. I went to work the next night but was still hurting from my fall. As I got down to the main floor walking towards the door there he was again. He was standing at the office door I was in the night before and I could see the names of two doctors on it and thats when he told me he was doctor Mc———. When asked I told him my back and shoulder still hurt and he just reach out taking my hand and telling me he would take a look at me. I know how naive this may sound but for some reason I trusted this man and let him lead me into the office. As I sat there he asked me where I had pain and said he hoped I hadn’t broken or fractured any bones. Then he just handed me a green hospital gown and pointed me towards a small dressing room. Like the inexperiened girl I am I let this guy examine me that night and even though I left my panties on he manage to have me take them off. He examined my entire body touching me everywhere and what I thought would be embarrassing wasn’t at all. My boyfriend is the only other guy that saw me naked and I didn’t mind this guy seeing me at all. Then he just lifted one foot at a time and guided my legs onto sturrups. Thats when he asked if I was a virgin and when I said I wasn’t he put on latex gloves and began fingering me. After only a short time I got wet from it but didn’t orgasm. After I got dressed he told me I was ok but if I want he could check me again, but only if I wanted him to. As I was leaving the office there was a picture on the wall of Dr. Mc——– and Dr G—— and it wasn’t him. I was dumb enough to think it was some kind of mistake but during that week found out he is the head of security for the entire complex. What the shamful and embarrassing thing is that I became turned on by knowing this man saw me naked and manipulated me. I was mad about it at first but by the time the next weekend came I was aroused everytime I thought about it. The next Friday night as I walked down the hallway he was standing at the office door again. I felt nevous all the sudden and when I got close to him he asked if I wanted him to check me out again. My brain said no but I just looked at him and said yes. He handed me a gown again and within ten minutes I was laying there naked in front of him knowing full well he wasn’t a doctor. He thinks, and I let him believe I am 16 years old, which hasn’t detered him in any way. That night was the first time he had me orgasm and since then I let him examine me two or three times a month. I don’t know whats wrong with me lettring him do this but I get so turned on by it. If my parents or boyfriend ever found out what I am letting this man do they would surely die. The last few months he has the gown completely off of me and just the fact that I am laying there naked in front of him makes me excited. I could never tell anyone what I have been letting this man do to me and still don’t know his full name. I know nothing about him but did find out his first name is Art. He does believe I am only 16 and I believe he thinks I am a complete idiot. I let him touch me in ways no doctor ever would and he usually has me orgasm two or three times. He also fingers and penitrates my rectum now and that is something I never thought would be pleasing to me. Why all this doesn’t embarrass me I’m not sure and know he waits for me all the time. All he does now is ask me if I want him to examine me and I always say yes or ok.