It wasn’t an attention whoring suicide attempt where I wanted to draw attention to myself, I just really wanted my internal struggle to be over. I removed my t-shirt and tied it around my neck and cinched it up tight. With in seconds I started to go out, right before I lost consciousness I had second thoughts and decided I wanted to live. I struggled and freed myself from my own trap about a second or two before I would have went out. For the few seconds that I had a hard time getting the knot loose was pretty freaky. It still scares me know how close I came to doing myself in. I’ve never told anyone about this and I never will.